Today is the last day of ramadhan :( Im gonna miss this . I love ramadhan :) it ta ght how to not eat too much of food. haha . and Im more getting closer to Allah . and now syawal is coming . yeaah , Im going to eat kuih raya , rendang , lemang , ketupat every day 24/7 . but it nice y'know . Cause only Syawal time we will get those things and I can eat my mum's food ! Rawr .. go back to kampung also is a good thing . I can meet people that I rarely know and getting know them better and better every year . But sad thing is this year our family cant go much on vacation cause we just have 6 days for celebrate raya . 6 days is a short y'know . We wanted to go Pulau Langkawi but then ... Hmpph . but its okay maybe next time . Mercun and bunga api is my thing . haha . I dont like mercun much cause the sound really scared me of. I more into bunga api . yeaaah more girly and tergedik2 and pusing2 the bunga api . hahaa yeah thats me . No lah . usually Im the one who always help the kids light up their bunga api -.- hahaha

Oh yes ! Finally met him :') I thought I wasnt going to meet him again :D Yes , he with his tersengih guy -.- I was in the car while he and his friends watching football match . So , I was like god ! is that him ? Oh no it cant be ! And i keep mumbling shit while my mum was like apa dia ? tengok siapa huh ? then I was like busted !!! HAHAHA . I was super stunned . So , I walked the other way so that I wouldnt face to face with him ... I just dont want to y'know . cause obviously he will look at me and would say what the fuck is she doing here ? SO YEAAAH . and I dont want ot make an eye contact with him -.- and his tersengih guy . Im so embrassing . And im so not going to embrassed myself again :)

So , I was sleeping at 7am in the morning .Then , suddenly I received a call . Oh , it was Dieba . And she asked me if I wanna see watch a movie ? And I was like What time is now ? and she said it 1.30pm . And I was like Oh okay ,so what movie are e going to watch ? and she said Final destination 5 .And Hell yeaah ! I really wanted to watch it and without thinking I just say yes .So, the movie started at 2.30pm . So I gotan hour to shower , dress up , and walk to go pyramid . For me ,an hour isnt enough . HAHA .. At last I made it to came early . about 5 minutes early ? yeahh it consider too :) So , on the screen , it said that 2.30pm movie only left few seats . So we were worried that we cant manage to get a seat for us . But lucky is our middle name yawww ! Yeah we got it .So, after bought the tickets , we straight went t the theatre hall .And I was shocked . The hall is so much better than before . More high class I guess . haha . and yeaah .. the movie was terrified . it about how they being killed by according to sequence . You know I just cant see blood . it is sooo ewww. hahaha . and The movie really have a suspend part and the sound effect wa really good actually .. I screamed a lot of time with my hand close my mouth . haha . But there was a part when I couldnt look at the screen cause I dont have guts to look at it . it was terrified . But it was fun though . The movie taught us to think while watching a movie . haha me and dieba was like he's going to die next oh wait ! I think he's going to die . HAHA . Then , teman dieba but jeans . then she wanted go back early cause her mum's was thre too and she wanted to cook . so yeaah . So, I went to forever 21 as usual and guess what ? I was fuckin' shocked . There was a sweater hoodie , the original price was like rm139 . and after discount it just rm40 ?!?!?! hell fuck yeaah ? yeaah . so , I bought it :) and one shirt with hoodie half zip . it was so cool like ! HAHAHA . Im happy :)

Finally , The Lols are gathering ! well, not the most but only 2 people didnt showed up cause pu3 going to balik kampung while fatimah buka puasa with her family . But at least syikin showed up :) And she felt a bit awkward when aishah's around :) But at least is a good start :D So, we break fast at Carl's Jr again ! HAHA . CAuse we dont know where to eat and every one's like wants to eat at difference places. So we ended up to eat there :D Wow , there's a lot of people and a bit crowded but thanks to Aishah because she chop a strategic place for us . After that , we search handbag for amani and lepak for a while at starbucks . I wanted to buy Baskin robbins but then everyone was like lazy to get up . So , I feel like lazy to go too . Then , around 10pm aishah's mom pick her up while me, amani and bella went to parkson cause my mum was there bought my sister jeans .. How about me mummy >? and I saw Halim ? BHAHAHA . yeaah , Amani was soo excited to see him :) Then went to bidara then at 12 o'clock went back home . Online for a while . I mean long a while . HAHAHA . and he started to gave me a message on facebook . So , I decided to not reply his message . I dont want give him a hope . And I hope we just remain as a friend :D

Tommorow Im going to meet my friends . Yeah , I really need them . They are my life . Now im really down cause my stupid assigment . I hope Im not the only one who has to do over again . This is really really not what I expected . College life isnt cool . I know there's bunch of hot guys but it aint cool . Like seriously not cool . I dont have my friends there . I mean I do have but they are not exactly what im expected . They are different . They are not so open minded . Cause most of them are from girls school .so yeaaah . I cant find The Lols personality when im around college . cause I need them all the time . and seriously i can live without them . They are my heart :D Love them till the end of the world :') I just wanna high school life back ! College life is suck . unffffffff

Yes , its true !! my psychology assignment . I mean the individual assignment .. I dont know what to say . like seriously shit ! It says that We have detected 91% plagiarism in your PY 101 individual written assignment. Entire sections particularly on Prevalence, Etiology and the Conclusion part have been copied exactly word for word without any modification and not cited accordingly. I mean what the hell ?!?! every one is copied on internet .who wants to thinking all this thing and its like more 1800 words !! yeah can u imagine that ? and why they are so stupid to let me know by then of this month . why are they torturing me ?!! Why now !? This is so unacceptable ! Now I need to re-do again my assignment ! YESSSS ! You should summit the assignment to me latest by 5 September 2011. You can summit the assignment in soft copy through e-mail since the college would be closed already. Nevertheless, 10% will still be deducted as penalty. If plagiarism is detected on the assignment again, you will be called for further investigation. Yeaaah ! I just exaclty have a week to finish this :D thanks to me ! Seriously I just wanted to cry . oh , Yes , I just did . This is really stress me out . my broadband was stupid and freaking slow . so how am I going to do this ?!??! and raya just around the corner and this is really reaally ! arrrgggh ! college life is not cool as you thought . It really harder than high school ! And now ! I just dont know how to start !!!!!!!!!!

So as you can see or no body sees , I actually has a crush on Arab people :) DANG! what the hell is wrong with me ? Arab people is really really agressive . DOnt chu think ? Well, lets call him Qaif . Yeaaah , Why Qaif ? I dont know why ?! I feel like the name is sooo Arab-ish ???? Hahaha So first time I met him? Hmmm I absolutely can't remember when ? but I know how we first met . I think he is a regular customer of my way / bidara cause Im always see him and his bunch of friends . I think they always shisha around . so yeaaaaah . So , one time he just passed through my way and he was like gave me a quick look . And yeah of course I looked at him to . And I just can't take my eyes off him.Like seriously ! I was looking at him the whole quick look time . And watafak is wrong with him too! Why is he looking at me and not look away back ?!?! and he's looking at me the whole time too . So , I expect that he will turn away back but he don't . And I think God knows what is happen after that . Well, I keep meeting him coincidently . And I think he knows too . Oh yeaaaah , he likes to come to my way because he likes to buy gardenia bread . the green plactic bag which is the wholemeal grain bread . There's one time I saw him eat the whole loaves without anything . Maybe he just follow what gardenia's idea is . enak dimakan begitu saja ~~~HAHA . Yeah everytime he bought it . Seriously , I hate the way he look . You just dont know it . He is sooo ego-ish . Like really really really . I mean cant you say thank you or smile or whatever la kan ? but he just act sooo cool . But he does smell good ! OH YEAH . I swear to God . I love his smell. I hope he knows that . Oh wait ?I take my words back .I hope he doesnt know that :) I think the smell of him just make me more crazy about him . So, I tried to be friendly with his friends . And I think it was really awkward? HAHA . YEAH . I noticed there's one guy , a guy always with him 24/7 I think he is one of his best friend . Yeah me and bella called him tersengih guy . Y'know why ? Because I think HE CAUGHT ME THAT IM ALWAYS LOOKING AT QAIF . Why im being so fucked up ?! is that tooo obvious ? I mean ... DANG !! There's one time im eating with my family during break fast. So , his another friend was eating on the opposite side where am i sitting . So while Im eating I saw two guys walking in front of me . And it was him and tersengih guy . So they went to their friend's table .So , I just pretend that I wasnt looking at him but actually HELL YEAH I AM :) and this is the time when tersengih guy caught me that I am looking at Qaif :) and then tersengih guy was grinned at me and I just realised that I've been caught off by him . And we were like communicate each other . It was like Hey! I gotchu looking at my friend ! HELL NO ! I wasnt ! Hell yeah You was ! all the time ! Is that too obvious ?! Fucking YES ! hahahaaaaa. and went tersengih guy wanted to pay in the counter . he purposely walk in front of me and grinned . I pretend that I wasnt looking at him at all . Yeaaaah , that is a story of my life =.= and some times I always met Qaif in Sunway . I mean yeaaah the whole time . I guess ! OH YEAAAH .Now i remember when I saw him for the first time ! oh wait ?! I think I dont know yet ?! :D hahaha well , yeaaah I've been see him around Sunway , gym , my way , bidara . I think I know all his lepaking friends too which was weird ! HAHA Oh yeaah ! I like when there's one time , he wanted to buy his favourite bread and he gave it his money to me and yeaah he does smell good :D I cant stop smiling !! so I bite my tongue :) and my heart beat really fast ! I hope he doesnt hear that .. So this is moment when I wanted to give him back his balance . Before that , Mr alex , my psychologist lecturer , he has giving me a tip how to make people to talk to us or how to make people talk with us for the first time .So , Let me give the tip . Yeaah , you must press your tone voice a little bit and make it sounds more happier and not too fake . So I tried to him . Wanna see the result ?!?!?! YESS :D he talked to me for the first time !! Wohoooo ! when I gave him back the balance , I said to him Thank Youuu with 'the tone' . And he replied back thank you to me .. And I think I was smiling the whole time ! I guess ?! That method is fucking work out ! HAHAAAA . but yeaah you know . when he said Thank You . there no smiling face and for the first time again !Finally I can hear his voice ! Dang ! he's voice I tell youuuuuuuu ! It is sooooo Lucas Till version ! Really deep and rough ! and Thats why I liked !! But yeaaah . his face a bit cocky . My friends told me that too . we called him Mr Gangstah :D He has a mcho look and yet a bit cocky and ego . I bet u must imagine how he looks like :D hahaha . He is my ideal next future husband ! HAHA . yeaaaah He's tall ! CHECKED. He has a dimple ! CHECKED . He has an average body ! CHECKED . but he is a smoker . Yeaaah . he smoked =.= And I know what type of cigarette too ! haha . One time I saw him with his college shirt :) I think he is in a foundation year in Monash University :D TEHEEE . Am I stalk him too much ?! HAHA . And I had seen him smiled too ! which is I think really cute . his dimple sungguh menyerlah ! :D And you know what ? when he smiled , I can see that there's no cocky or macho face . and it really nice to see him smile :D Now , I havent see him for a while and his friends too .Maybe he's on his holiday and go back to Arab and celebrate Eid with his family :)

So , yeaaah . I wanna talk about a guy . A guy that always looking at me these those days . and It make me really conscious about him . Yeah , he has a really bad look . I mean his face is so arrogant . Just so you know he's from Pakistan . He's exactly like what Zayn Malik race is :D Pakistani :D but he's totally not look like Zayn =.= So the story is beginlike this . I dont wanna mention his name laa kan ? Cause I know someone is reading this and probably she will smile at it and continue reading .. So, He is friend of my friend . His friend used to like me . He always texted me and really care about me . And I thought it was cute . So, suddenly he asked me to be his gf . so I said to him that I dont wanna be rush into relationship cause I dont date with you yet . so I dont know what type of person are you . Then he said okay fine . i dont force you . And I said to him that maybe we can be friends and let see if something happen then fine . And he said okay .Then there's one time he asked me to go out with him but unfortunately im too busy with college life . Then after a while , he stops texting me . And I being so ego , and I stop texting him too. so , we're like soooo lost contact . then after a month . I saw him with his friends and he tried to be 'friendly' with me which I assume was a fake friendly . So , I keep continue see him without my awareness . So , maybe his friend saw that I really uncomfortable with that fake friendly friend . So he came to me and ask me how are you and introduce himself . Im okay with that . Then he told me that his friend has a gf . and thats why he was like ignore and not talking with me . And I was like OH ? Then ,if he had a gf , is that wrong to talk with ur 'girl' friend too ? So I was like oh okay , I didnt hurt or feel sorry about that but Im happy that he found one . So yeaah , and then he asked my phone number . and I was like why dont you asked ur friend ? he has my number. then he was like okay . then he texted me . and ask me out . so , I was free that time and yeaah I went out with him . We just had a normal talk at open air situation which is just nice for me and him . But a bit awkward cause He dont know what to ask me and of course I dont know what to ask him . so yeaaah . but I think is really good a conversation . we talked about each other and I made jokes on it . And he said that Im really talkactive and he dont . Well, I think I become talkactive because Im not nervous or control myself to be a perfect lady in the world . So , im just being me :D but he havent see MYSELF yet when im with my friends . HAHA . he will be suprised . So he wanted to treat me a milkshake but I refused to. I dont want people to treat me on a our first met . unless you're my bf then you have to .. So the thing is he's probably not my type . Well, he's tall but not that tall.Not that type of my ideal tall is and he's too skinny . I mean look at me ! I dont desrve to be stand beside him . I mean it looks really weird . dontchu think ? Plus,I dont really much fancy of a skinny guy .He has a bad look. I mean an arrogant look . And he walks too fast ! like what the hell ! im wearing high heels dude ! can you walk a bit slower ?! I dont think he has a dimple . And u know what ? when im looking into his eyes .. All i can see is a macho look.u know what i mean ? and his eyes is quite big .but not too big. And he really not a joker . I mean he is kind-hearted person but joker ? dont think so. I wanna guy who can jokes around and make me laugh out loud . So yeaaah .and Aftr that . he calls me and I didnt anwer cause im not that type of person who likes to talk on the phone and we texted each other .And I can see that he's trying to flirt with me . but not in a romantic way ? HAHAHA . when I make a joke or something there's no 'haha' in the text . so yeaaah .. And also I dont think Im ready in relationship situation .. cause I think I dont find a right guy yet . I know it someout where this universe maybe he's the one ?I dont know . Let's see what's happen next then . so yeaaaah !

As you can see the picture above . it shows that Zayn is a muslim and he proud to be one of them :) It really makes me overwhelmed . Its like I feel lucky to be a muslim too . Yeah I know , eventhough im not a 'perfect' muslim . But im still know who is my God (Allah) and what religion I am . Perfect means according to me I mean I dont wear tudung , I dont pray 5 times per day , sometimes I pray 3 or 2 and sometimes I dont but 5 is like a rarely number for me . And thats why I said Im not perfect . but I dont eat pork :D I dont drink and do drugs and stuff like that .. never went to clubbing eventhough im attempted to.haha . And I believe for any reason there must be something why we act like this , did that and etc . Cause I believe that God wants to give a better life as his slave :) I know in west people always thought that we are a terrorist . I mean whats wrong with your mind ? Not all the muslim is terrorist and not even one of us wants to be a terrorist . This is all about politics and people who wants to be racist . Yes , I know we need to support our own religion . but this is not the way .. just not the way . I hope all the west people will open their mind widely . be positive about Islam . We're not going to destroy ur country or conquer it . We just human being . We're not followers Osama Bin Laden . So please .. Stop saying Zayn Malik is a terrorist because he is not ! and so do I and So do all the muslim people :)

Hey ! Yes , I am Obssesed with One Direction :D They are british boyband :) LOUIS HARRY LIAM NIALL ZAYN :) They are absolutely amazing . I dont know how can I found them . But Im glad too .. I love the most is ZAYN MALIK . basically I hate guys who piered their ears .I mean im totally anti-pierced . but suddenly when I saw Zayn's pictures I was like DANG this guy is HOT ! even though he's pierced ! like seriously ! he is the most hottest guy with pierced ! I mean he looks good on it ! And I just fall in love with him :D He has an amazing voice ! He is the human echo! HAHAA But I love allof them :D They have their own personality :D I hope they will come to Malaysia :) I'd love to see them with my naked eyes :D oh yeah , their new single WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL is damn nice ! such a good song ! I dont care what people said . some said its a gay song ! watafak is wrong with yaa . I mean they sing the song to girls not guys DUMB ASS ! anyway . they are amazing and fantastic :D I know all the guys out there probably jealous with them:D Cause they are fuckin hot ! Liam has a 6 packs :) Harry has a dimple :D Louis is the funniest guy on earth :) Niall is the cutest :D Zayn is a bad boy :D So watch out guys !

Currently today is my birthday ! So , Happy birthday to myself :) Well, im not going to make a party or so whatever cause its ramadhan time . so yeaaah ! and im sick making my own birthday party . Why dont you just hang out with bunch of friends then just celebrate it :D RIGHT ? :) it so much better than you organize ur own party plus you need to spend some money on it :D So right now im just chilling out in my room :D and thankful to Allah still let me more healthier and keeps me breathing :D For being 18 years old , I've learnt so much of things . I being more matured ? i guess ? BHAHAA . Even though i am 18 . i still both my parents :D love them so much ! and Thank you Allah for made me still alive :) I love you . YES , I am 18 ! now i can do whatever i want ! TEHEEEEE :) but being 18 doesnt mean u can hang out 24/7 with ur friends and party and clubbing around ! HELLO? dont u know that you have your own family ?! C'mon laaah ! Your family must come first ! I do love my family ! :) and my friends :D OMG ! Did i just turned 18 ?! gosh ! why so fast ? I dont wanna get married ! I mean i wanna get married when im 24 . yeaah 6 years more to go ! got lots of stuffs to do then :D I need to find my Mr dimple :D and get married to him and get lots bunch of babies ! Well, i just wanna have 4 kids :) A twin would be better :D TEHEE

yes i knowww! I haven't been update this blog for how many months ? like 6 months ? HELL YEAAAH . Amani just told me that she wants to make a new blog . and I was like yeaaah , whats wrong with me ? i havent update my blog for many months . she forgets her password , so that's why she made a new one :) I wanted to do a new one too but im lazy bum to do so.. HAHA :D ANYWAY IM STILL ALIVE :)