Yes , he gave me butterflies ! I can feel the stomach pain after I saw him . just now . its not that I want to constipate but I just couldnt describe how butterflies am I right now . He wore green shirt . I swear to God that I hope he didnt see me . Well, actually Im at Kopie 1 replace my brother because he has a futsal competition . So I've been here for 3 days . and today is the last day for this week .I think he saw me but i quickly hide myself . I was praying that I will not meet him for this 3 days or even forever . Yes I Really Mean it . I dont know why . I feel really low self esteem when he's around . I feel shy , nervous , speechless, breathless , parkinson aka shaking :p maybe because of his look . Really aroggant but i dont thing that is a majot factor . Well, hmmmph let's see . Maybe because he has a lot of friend ? I mean everyone knows him ? *sigh* i just dont know . Well maybe because I dont deserve him . Yes , That's the answer that im looking for . I.Just.Dont.Deserve.Him. I do feel like to run away from him . By the way , Why am i fall in love with him ? Why do i crush on him ? Why him ? Why am I always meet him? Why ? and Why ? You know what ? Love is the most confusing of all feelings because it can be infatuation and can hurt alot of people feelings especially if it is unrequited . but sometimes i feel love is amazing when two people share it. I dont want to get hopes too high because if I did Im gonna take the risk . And i really dont wanna get hurt . I know how it feel . My friends does . I learnt from them :) You know what ? I think Im scared . I scared of love . I dont have a pretty face to make someone easily fall in love with me . I hate to make first move . Yes ! I Do Really Hate it . because I did my first move when my friend told me to do that . and it was freaking embrassing myself . And now I dont wanna to do over again . like seriously dude !