Yes I am ! -.- Well, there is one girl came to my way . She is a customer . but then Zayn came and close her eyes in front of me ! =.= And then yeaah that girl memang gedik pon ! Well I talk like this cause im not jealous but well yes i am but it is a truth . Cause she always buy monster drink from my brother and she's kinda gedik . FULLSTOP . Then she's screaming macam org gila -.- And they talking in urdu which is im fuckingly cant understand ! So I think they were fighting because i think that girl doesnt like what zayn did to her . -______- Then Zayn said sorry laa , jangan la marah . im just joking (urdu) . So thank god there are 2 friends of zayn . So i was ignore zayn and talk with them . it is completely ANNOYING ! Then Zayn was like by the way This is my girlfriend . Then he go back and tak coke while that girl name is Tinna asked is that real ? and I was like Yeaah . So he is your boyfriend ? and I said Yeaaah , he is . and she was like oooh ! Hmmm nasib baik he introduce me to her :) Ingat kan x nk :p

Today for the first time of my life , he never call me or even sms with me ! i just dont know why . I dont want to sms him because he always sms me ! Since he never sms me today . I REALLY MISS HIM :) Now , i want sms with him and tell him how much i miss him :(

Yesterday me an zayn were actually date for the first time without his friends or cousin . I think he really wants a serious relationship with me . So, we dinner at georgetown coffee . Well , actually his cousin works there -.- hahah but it is fine :) and then he chat with his cousin for a while, while im choose what I want . and then I said to him that I want Lychee and he said oh , I also want a same drink like you . -.- . HAHA so both of us has a same drink ! -.- and that time not so many people its just like only 3 or 4 tables . So , we talked about everything :) i talked about my friends to him . and seriously he keeps ask me when im going to let my friends meet him . Well, i want too zayn but all of them are quite busy you know :) and then we talk about pakistan and eveything :) he taught me how to speak urdu . ahaha which is so funny ! and then he touch my hair , playing with my hair . soweird ! and he said my hair is really nice ! yea yea yea right ! and then i said to him my hair is a lion king but he deny it . and then yeaaay ! I paid for the bill . FINALLY :) nie pon kena buat muka cute baru dia kasi :) kalau taaaaaaaaaak -.- and then he send me home but not in front home laa . depan bidara's bridge je . and then we hug and he suddenly kiss me on the cheek . Then , nampak Afif . HAHAHA :p and i went back home and my mum asked to pick my brother and sister at bidara . So i drove . Then he called to make sure that i safely arrive at my home but then i told him i need to go bidara to pick up my sister . then he said oh really ? Then i wait u at bidara :) So when i arrived at bidara , I called him and asked him to wait me at the back . After 5 minutes, he came and laughed -.- he said he cant believe i can drive a car .. and i was like watfak ?! hhahaa Then we chatting a bit and he said where is my kiss ? and i was like huh ?! HAHAHA i thought u gave me ur kiss ? and he said but i want my kiss ! you said one day one kiss . HAHAHAA well its true but yeaaah . Then he gave me a sexy look -________- which is so freaking funny ! haahha Then we kissed :) BHAHAHAHAAA . okay enough for that . Then he online so do I . so i gave him a tag . then suddenly there is a guy who is mutual friend with him add me as a friend ? So i ask him why your friend add me ? then he said i dont know . so i just accept je laa . then suddenly he IM me . i layan je laa . so he asked me what is my relationship with waqas . and i was like who are you to know my relationship with him ? and then he said la yg dia nie kawan lama zayn laa sama sekola laaa . thne when i ask zayn , zayn ckp lain . at first zayn ckp dia x kenal him then suddenly ckp dia kenal plak .. cakap mcm ATK mmg i bengang gila laakan ?? So gaduh la dgn Zayn :) sampai he called me like 30 times . i still x angkat2 but when he called me on 31 times . i angkat laaa . then he explain everything . He is so cute ! ahahah when he wants to explain to me he was like shafiqah , plz listen to me . listen to me baby just listen to me . HAHAHAHAA then after that everything is fine ! then the next day he called me in the morning and said yesterday u really angry with me ar ? and i said yes of course ! k bye i want to sleep ! then he said so u not angry with me any more ? then i said no zayn then he said thank you :) and i was like Awwwwwwwww . ahahhaha :) LOVE YOU :D

Today is our 3rd time hang out and yeaah we hang out with his other 2 friends . Like seriously , his friend is freaking funny and nice . So , we meet up at 8pm usual place in pyramid . So while im waiting him , there are 2 negro and one of them suddenly approached me . And I was like Whaaaaaaaat ?!?! Seriously , I completely dont understand what is he talking about . His accent fucking pekat ! and I keep saying sorry, what did u said ? HAHA . That negro was like Hey , I saw you walking . You look very beautiful. Where do u from ? and I was like errrrrrr, im from here . Then he was like oh really, im from south africa . and i was yea yea yeaa nice to meet you . and he said something that im fucking cant understand. I was really scared and I said sorry im waiting for my boyfriend and he dengan selamba nya cakap oh really ? where is your boyfriend ? why he keeps u waiting . i want to see your boyfriend ... something like that . and I mcm huh ?! Then Thank God Zayn came ! I was so relieved. and Zayn mcm selamba je . and he said Hi to me and said you bring you friends too ? And I was like WHAT ? no I didnt ! and he said so who’s that ?!! and I told him what did the negro do to me . And he was absolutely angry . he was like Why dont u said to that negro YOUWANNASLAP ? and I was like hahaha but hey . that is kinda rude ! and he was like oh so you like him approached you ? and I said No , I didnt said anything . and he was like if I knew he was disturbing you just now , like seriously i just wanna sound him .And I was like hey, chill laaaah . And then we went to KFC . I mean the outside Sunway Pyramid . and then when we were sitting there . Suddenly , I saw a same negros . While Zayn is ordering food at the counter and I said to his friend OMG ! THATS HIM ! and he waslike YEaaaaah ! why are they following us ? and I said I have no idea ! and then Zayn wanted to take sos and straw and he saw the negros and he is completely mad . and he gave a slack look at them . oh yeaaaah , the negros saw me and walk off away . I dont know if they are sitting in front or not cause our sit is kinda behind a bit .so yeaaaah . and then we waiting for another friend of Zayn , Taj . he is the hilarious one . haha and I think Zayn is a good friend of him. Cause whenever they talking each other and I can see the real zayn :) There is one time when Taj ask me Which part of zayn that u like ? his eyes, nose , mouth . and I said errrr, I like guy who really like to talk . and he said ohh wow .. or maybe u like the way zayn personality , you know like this... (and show some mr bean move ) and yeaaaah ! Zayn did a same move tanpa sengaja . haha and it was really hilarious . Zayn pon satu ! I know la all of them are his friend .and then nak suap2 laaa then keep saying I wanna kiss you so badly . IN FRONT OF THEM ! I was like buat bodoh je ! and then around 10.30pm we went home . but Zayn was volunteered to company me to go my house . and he said maybe I can get chance to kiss you :) and i keep smilling . ahhaa so Taj and other friend walk first and we were benhind them . and then when we were at the bridge . bhahahahahahaa Zayn asked me so , lets kiss . and i was errrrrrr , and suddenly got 2 or 3 people . So takkan nak kiss depan diorg . nak gila apa! and he was damn !! and i just laughed . and after taht people walk away ,we were looking at each other and going to kiss but unfortunately when we stare each other we were laughing like hell ! so 1st attempted was FAILED ! So tak jadi la . then we wanted to kiss when we were walking down to the stairs but then his friends was like bugging us cause they dont know which way to go . haha . 2nd attempt FAILED and the 3rd attempt , we were like almost to kiss but there was a lady waking up the stairs . SO TAKJADILAGI> bahahha FAILED AGAIN . hahahaha and then we continue walk and he talks about me . I am seriously in love with you ... I do had a girlfriend before but then I dont want to talk about her . you are really special to me . I dont know how to decribe how much i love you and i really do . I hope our relationship will forever . and never ends . and then he said why u choose me? why dont u choose malay guy ? and i told him that Malay guy is seriously useless ! hahaha most of them . but to find the right one is really hard . yeaaah and it is true :) it is hard to find a malay guy that except the way you are and really loyal to you . Look at nowdays , most of them are likely girls who is hot , pretty , skinny and blahblahblah . and i am totally opposite . So,the most important to me is the guy that i want must accept me who I am . and Zayn did it :) So , back to our story , now we walking to my tepi lorong . and I show him my house and he was like oooohhh ... and then his friends were there too but they said they just wait at the back while zayn walk wiith me until in front of my house gate . so this is the most memorial moment . HAHA so , when we dah sampai at my gate and I just turned towards him and shake his hand and said sooooo then straight away he grabs my hips and we kissed :D HAHAHAHA YEAAAH WE KISSED ! Lol . and yeaah 4th attempted was finally complete ! bahahhaa . Our kissed was like a bit funny ! I dont know why ! maybe because this is my first kiss . hahaa we dont actually french kiss cause french kiss means you kissed your partner more than 5 seconds . and we dont actually lip lock kiss too hahahaah cause lips lock kiss was like just a quick kiss . and I think we were in then middle hahah I dont know how to explain and if I explained it . So the malu laaaah . I bet mesti ada minah sorang nie tengah baca my blog . hahaha Well we were actually just press our lips like 3-4 seconds ? and yeaaaah my eyes automatically closed ! :) haha y’knoww.. to feel the moment . hahaha and then he kissed my cheek 3 times and we said goodbye !:) And oh yeah I think i do the kaki thingy .. HAHA yes I did .you know when u kiss some one who taller than you and you were like do the kaki thingy . what did it called eyh ?? errmm yeaaah the jongket kaki thingy . HAHAHA kau buat fham2 je laaaaa . hahaha The worst part is I know his friend are looking at us !! For sure ! and it was so embrassing ! haha I wanted to kiss him back on the cheeck but then i think he also malu with his friends and he quickly jalan . HAHA yeah the best moment and awkward so far :)

So today like Im freakingly lazy to wake up ! but unfortunately I have to because it's FRIM day ! Hahaha bloody hell kan ?! We were like org sesat kat sana ! but thank god ada tour guide :) His name is Wahid ! haha funny la jugak ! and then as usual me and dhiya and athena was behind talking shit . hahaa Angenya nyonyi . hahaha all this came from RAIS ! haha the jungle trekking was fucking tired . HAHA maybe I dont get used to it .. arghhh But i think kem PKBMU was the worst laaa ! hahaa jungle trekking dia ya yalle2 !! haha but this one was like okay2 laaa. So , I and Chris was the 1st male and female who reached on the top . The feeling was amazing !!! and we were up there rest for a while and straight away go to canopy walk . BABI ! canopy walk mcm shit !! I even not looking down ! that canopy was shaking2 mcm dangdut ! MR Yong is soo stupid ! Dah la takut tinggi ! then pegi goyang2 !!! arghhh. When i was walking i feel like im going to die ! A boy behind me was so chillax ! he walked faster than me and he could run ! and I mcm eyh budak! jangan laa jalan laju2! HAHAHA and they we saaw this monkey ! HAHAHAHA Thats why i put monkey picture here :) they were so aggresive ! when they took the food from the dustbin ! bapak mcm DANG !! satu group mcm keluar and berebut ! HAHAHAHA and we waited for dhiya athena arjun and ashok to came down ! They a bit slow ! so I waited for an hour down here watching monkey see monkey do ! ahahha well, ate MCD :D ahahahah bangla kan ?! penat2 naik turun semua then makan MCD ! BAHAHHAA .

What's wrong with HER ?! Like **** seriously !! Why u need to compare with my friends ?!?!!?!??! Oh just because they are wearing tudung and im not . Then u shouted at me like freaking ****** !!?? eyh tolong laaaaaa sikit . I know what am i doing ! just because you PMS or what the **** it is , you suddenly want to ask me wearing tudung and all that stuff HUH ? please laaa . FINE if i wore a tudung then perangai aku mcm ******* tak guna jugak kan !?!?!?!?!? If I wore a tudung then aku pgg tgn dgn org bukan muhrim pon TAK GUNA JUGAK KAN !?!??!?!?!?!!? If I wore a tudung then lepak dgn lelaki TAK GUNA JUGAK KAN !??!?!?! If I wore tudung then I pakai baju ketat2 tapi tutup aurat TAK GUNA JUGAK KAN ?!!??! If I wore tudung tapi TERNAMPAK SANA TERNAMPAK SINI TAK GUNA JUGAKKAN ?! If I wore tudung tapi berpeluk2 dgn lelaki TAK GUNA JUGAK KAN ?!!? If I wore tudung tapi aku mencarut semua TAK GUNA JUGAKKKAAAAN !?!?!?!? If I wore tudung tapi nampak lengan sana sini TAKGUNA JUGAKKAN !?!?!??! kau tak fikir ke semua tuh ! yg kau fikir org yg pakai tudung SEMUANYA PERFECT GILA LA ?!?!?! kau pon lebih kurang sama je laaa . aku belajar dpd kau !! yg engkau tu tak horma suami tu apa !?!??! Pakai je tudung , tutup aurat ! tapi suami kau x peduli !!! pergi car lelaki lain ! Itu kau tak fikir ??!! Yang kau curang dgn suami kau tak fikir?!?!?! yang sekarang nie kau masih contact dgn lelaki **** tu kau x fikir ?!?!!??! yg kau kononnya nak selamatkan lelaki tu drpd sihir kau tak fikir ?!!??!!?! apa yg kau fikir ?! aku x sampai hati la nak bgtau suami kau kan yg kau nie mcm nie . tahu tak kau nie ber FIKIRAN KAMPUNG ! Tolong laaa I know when im going to wearing tudung semua okay ! PLease laaa all this stuffs are senstive to me ! If you thought people who wear tudung is completely perfect well you are wrong NO BODY IS PERFECT .

This is suck ! I dont have a time for him . i mean i havent meet him for a quite a long time . Probably like 3 days ! What kind of girlfriend am I ? Well, our time always doesnt get along . Well, yeah but we do SMS 24/7 :) but right now he is sick ! Awwww, probably he misses me too much ! HAHA oh well, we talked lot of things . well, he actually likes pink which is sooooo ewwww !! HAHAHA and there was time he talked about kiss . I just play around with him .So I said I would love to kiss wherever part u want me to kiss you . And suddenly he said why dont u just suprised me by giving me a french kiss ?! And I was laughing like shit ! Damn me ! And i replied to him Eh , excuse me . I think it would be better if a guy kissed a girl when it comes to french kiss . because isnt weird if girl french kiss with a guy ? So desperate ! And he said I thought you were desperate to want to kiss me ?! bhahahahaha OTAK KAU ! An d the suddenly he talked about marriage ! WOW Im impressed ! he said he's going to propose me next year ! and i was like WHAT ? im not ready ! Like Y'knoooooooow ! hahaah Plus im just 19 and I want to live with my virginity ! HAHHA we just couple like 4 days and this is weird ! well, normal laa org brcinta kan ? Semua nya nk perfect ! hahaha . BUT seriously I do miss him ! i dont know when is the time that im going to spend my time with him :( maybe soon :)

Today is the best day ! yeaaah and what a coincidence ! its 9.10.11 !! Wow , like seriously ! first of all I want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my lovely friend , SITI NABILA BINTI HASHIM . cause today is her birthday !! Wohooooooo ! i know i wish u late but who cares ?!?!??! hhahaha well, i hope she had the best day of her life :) or maybe she did found her 'HeIsTheOne' . well , I found mine :) The story is begin like this . Today me and bella were supposed to go KLCC and PAVILLION but unfortunately bella's auntie is going to visit her . so yeaaaah ATK ! but never mind . I dont mad because luckily today is her birrthday ! HAHA so I ended up woke up at 2pm and on9 and chat with aishah . and go late lunch with her and talk about girls things and all the fight thingy . dont want to share here because maybe suddenly someone read it and huru hara jadi mcm dulu2 .. sudah serik! Then suddenly he messaged me and want to meet me at 8pm cause he did confessed to me on sms but i want it to be real ! I want it to be face to face ! i just want to be so fairytale ! HAHAHA so the awkward moment when he brought his cousin again ! HAHA I dont mind actually but to say and confess in front of his cousin was the hardest ! BAHAHA .Well, so we dinner at KFC je . bhahaha so , his cousin buy for our food ! while we chop the place . bhahaha . And the awkward moment came again .So, he asked me so what's your answer ? then i was like what kind of answer ? you didnt tell me the question yet so how am i going to answer you? and he smiled and said I told you last night remeber ? and I said Oh , maybe I forgot :) Can you tell me one more time please ? and He said oh c,mon ! :) and I said what ?!?!?! and yet he still not confess to me . and the suddenly his cousin, Ali , came bring the food ! and again he treat me ! Why ? I dont get used to ! No body treat me like he did ! Awwwwww :) I just order my coselaw cause I just ate with aishah ! I asked for the small one he gave me the big one ! Mana tak habis ! and then we talked about usual stuffs about my friends . He asked me who already know about him ? I said bella ,amani and aishah :) while his side only Ali knows about me ! Because if he told his pakistani friends mostly know exactly who I am . A girl that works at My Way Station .Well, I dont mind if he,s not ready to tell his friend about us . Plus , on our first date he send me to Bidara and we shake our body ! nah , we shake our hands and one person who works at Wan's corner , the old man saw us ! I didnt know about it until he told me . So that old man was like interview him . Ask him why he shake hands with me ? are we dating ? are we together ? and Plus one more thing he said that dont couple with her cause her dad is really strict man ! Well, yeaaah He is ! but the thing is he's only strict when it comes to business and I know his face also look so the garang but for me he is always like than but he actually really king-hearted person .. Duh , mesti lah ! he is my dad ! I know him better than anyone else. So everyone was like dont couple with her because if her dad knows about this , you gonna be kill ! Like oh c,mon my dad is not like that ! if im happy with that guy .so do him ! he's not a typical dad who not allowed his daughter to couple with any guy unless i know the barriers . Yes , I am already grown up .I know what is wrong what is right . And im still believe in my religion. Because he said normally in Pkaistani all the parents are stereotype . They will angry if their daughter hang out with some guys . So yeaaah , And I still remember that he ased about what if my dad saw both of us walking together and suddenly my dad approached us and ask who is this guy ? what woud I say ? Well, I tell him that i will tell my dad that you are my boyfriend :) And he smiled :) Awwwwww. hahahha . Well , back to the story . he didnt yet confess to me . He was soo scared or maybe nervous i think . hahaha . Then he asked his cousin Ali to let us both together for a while . So Ali pon pegi round2 . and he still not reveal his feeling towards me at first he send me a msg I LOVE YOU . But i want he said to me face to face ! for real ! I want he said the words from his mouth ! So i was like noo , i dont understand what did u wrote .can u explain ?and he said please shafiqah u know what it is mean right ? and Im keep saying no . so Ali came back :) he still not confess to me and i was like okay fine ! then he was like oh Ali ! why u came so early ! i didnt confesss to her yet ! ( in hindustani language ) and Ali was like kind pissed jugak laaa . and then he sat at the back of our sit . I was so malu laaa ! yela ,his cousin tgk us confess each other ! doesnt it so awkward ?!?! So the awkward moment came . So im waiting for him to ask me to be his gf but well yeaah i think he just to nervous ! and we play a game call Q&A :) So he asked me Shafiqah,do you like me ? and I was like yeaaaaaaah :) Do you trust me ? and I was likeee yeaaaaaah :) Do you accept me ? I was like as a what ? And he said as your boyfriend ? and i give a 5 seconds silent and said yeah ! and we both smile mcm taik ! BHAHAHAHAHHAA And he is so relief i think bahahahhaa .and Ali came to join us back and he said to Ali , Ali, she accept me :) And ali look at me and smile and I was like maigod ! malunya laaaaaa ! bhahahaha. Then he stalked me on fb ! he said tell me honestly , did u ever chat with other pakistan guy besides me ? and I was like yeaaah a lot ! hahaha and his kinda jealous ! Plus , I had conversation with his enemy which is my friend too . BHAHAHAHA and he didnt like it that way . and i was like okaaaay :) and then we ciao from the KFC and he wants to take picture with me with his phone ! but then unfortunately his phone battery low then suddenly battery empty ! what the hell ! HAHAHA nak tak nak kena use my phone ! it is really awkward !!!!! HHAHAHA then Ali helps us by took our pictures . BHAHAHAHAHAHA . and then when we out from sunway pyramid he told me that im soo sorry i need to walk away from you because my friends are all here . and I said okay I understand . Then suddenly , he walk beside me and he didnt see that his friend actually in front of us but thank god Ali was soo alert about it and told him :) and we kiss a goodbye ! ceh , tak laaah we just shakehands with love . hahaha cause im not going to bidara but im straight away go back home :) and This is the awkward best moment !

Yeaaah , Im went to blind date again :) Well , I did like 3 times with 3 different guys .. but this is one is a bit different . He is gentlemen . CHECK . And he paid all the bills :) Awwwww . Okay . at first he found me on facebook and add me as afriend . So , I accept him . Then , he keep IM me .. And aku pon layan je la dia . So , he told me his feeling towards me but I am a person that dont straight away go into relationship . I mean I want to know him better first . So today is our blind date at Borneo . That place is really nice . I love the way he choose a place for us . Seriously , I dont expect him to bring me there . I thought he would like to take me out at manhattan ke or i dont know someplace inside the pyramid ? Well, When we were in Borneo . It was a little bit awkward cause he knows everyone who works there . And everyone looking at me . -.- Y'know right . i dont like people looking/staring at me. And he's from Pakistani . So all of them speak pakistan language ala2 hindustan laa . So i was there sitting doing nothing and just listen what are they talking about . He is a talkactive person and really a good listener . and he's funny and he is honest and friendly . Oh yeah , he bring his cousin ! which is funny ! actually nobody would like to take their cousin to their first date . But he told me that he brings his cousin because he doesnt want people to think bad about us . Means we are not official boyfriend and girlfriend yet . So to avoid people to think stereotype . He did brought his cousin :) Awwwww. which is good I think . Because I am his friend right . So , I dont need to be worry about it . While we are dating not officially , I was messaging with bella :) and he knows about it .. And then we went to Old town white coffee. and he asked me to order something . And I was like WHAT ? I just ate . and im full . then he suddenly order coffee for two of us. And I was like . errrrrrr . hahaha . that is gentlemen (Y) hahaha. He is a nice guy actually . eventhough he is not tall as I hope for . but he still taller than me :) he has a bad guy look :) and that is my favourite part ! HAHA He always walks beside me and he walks slow . but the thing is he likes me . He really trying hard to get me . I dont know whether I like him or not . Yes I do like him but as a friend . I dont want to go into relationship so fast cause I've been in it once and that was a mistake . A silly stupid mistake . Im just scared . I dont know what love is like .I dont dare to give a shot. I dont know whether I can get through this relationship with him . Im scared what would people say about us . he is really a nice guy . No doubt . He always keep saying that he loves me , he misses me . and Im speechless .I dont know what to say to him . I feel worst . But I dont think that Im suit for him ? OMG why I feel so insecure ? I dont know if we could be a cute couple . Well , I just dont know okay ! You know what ? My brain said no, you cant be with him but my heart why do you give him a shot ? Well, most people said follow ur heart . But im scared . IMJUSTSCARED .