Yeaaah , Im went to blind date again :) Well , I did like 3 times with 3 different guys .. but this is one is a bit different . He is gentlemen . CHECK . And he paid all the bills :) Awwwww . Okay . at first he found me on facebook and add me as afriend . So , I accept him . Then , he keep IM me .. And aku pon layan je la dia . So , he told me his feeling towards me but I am a person that dont straight away go into relationship . I mean I want to know him better first . So today is our blind date at Borneo . That place is really nice . I love the way he choose a place for us . Seriously , I dont expect him to bring me there . I thought he would like to take me out at manhattan ke or i dont know someplace inside the pyramid ? Well, When we were in Borneo . It was a little bit awkward cause he knows everyone who works there . And everyone looking at me . -.- Y'know right . i dont like people looking/staring at me. And he's from Pakistani . So all of them speak pakistan language ala2 hindustan laa . So i was there sitting doing nothing and just listen what are they talking about . He is a talkactive person and really a good listener . and he's funny and he is honest and friendly . Oh yeah , he bring his cousin ! which is funny ! actually nobody would like to take their cousin to their first date . But he told me that he brings his cousin because he doesnt want people to think bad about us . Means we are not official boyfriend and girlfriend yet . So to avoid people to think stereotype . He did brought his cousin :) Awwwww. which is good I think . Because I am his friend right . So , I dont need to be worry about it . While we are dating not officially , I was messaging with bella :) and he knows about it .. And then we went to Old town white coffee. and he asked me to order something . And I was like WHAT ? I just ate . and im full . then he suddenly order coffee for two of us. And I was like . errrrrrr . hahaha . that is gentlemen (Y) hahaha. He is a nice guy actually . eventhough he is not tall as I hope for . but he still taller than me :) he has a bad guy look :) and that is my favourite part ! HAHA He always walks beside me and he walks slow . but the thing is he likes me . He really trying hard to get me . I dont know whether I like him or not . Yes I do like him but as a friend . I dont want to go into relationship so fast cause I've been in it once and that was a mistake . A silly stupid mistake . Im just scared . I dont know what love is like .I dont dare to give a shot. I dont know whether I can get through this relationship with him . Im scared what would people say about us . he is really a nice guy . No doubt . He always keep saying that he loves me , he misses me . and Im speechless .I dont know what to say to him . I feel worst . But I dont think that Im suit for him ? OMG why I feel so insecure ? I dont know if we could be a cute couple . Well , I just dont know okay ! You know what ? My brain said no, you cant be with him but my heart why do you give him a shot ? Well, most people said follow ur heart . But im scared . IMJUSTSCARED .