I dont know whats wrong with me .. I jus cant live without my true friends . Its hard for me to comfort with my college because I am person who dont easily friend with people who i just met I need to know them very well then I will decide whether they can be my friends or not . There is a girl in my class . I dont want to mention her name but she always get high marks for the subject . But when it comes into group project . She is really not giving commitment at all . she never giving a good idea . I want to tell her but I tak sampai hati because she is really nice girl. But she is really smart girl . I just dont know how she can get high marks for every subject . Plus , It reallt hard for me to go to college .. If I want to .. I need to get up early and take bus 1 1/2 or 2 hours before the class start which is really annoying but I cant complaint because that is my choice . Im the one who decided to go to the college. I feel really sad and alone because im always get the lowest marks among my friends because i think they are too smart to beat it . It doesnt mean my marks is too low but i want high marks like them . I dont know how they can hang out and get high marks ! this is so bullshit =.=