Like I said , no bosy cant stop me to loving Muhmmad Waqas .. Only Allah can let me forget him . When I said no body . It is including my own father . So watch out if u ask me to not meet him again . You will regret the whole your life .......

Fucker lah ! Baby spoiled every thing !! she suddenly ask waqas do u know what kaka gives you for ur birthday ? then Waqas said what ? then i said why do u want to tell ? then baby said biarlah bukan dia tahu. Baby x bgtau lagi pon . Then seddenly baby said u know ur country famous sport ............. Then waqas said cricket pakistan shirt ? then baby buat muka terkejut =.= then he laughing then asked me really u give me pakistani shirt ? then i said no la . I just keep deny it . until he said ooooooooh someone buy me a shirt lah ! then i seriously angry because baby spoiled it laa ! Now no suprise anymore fucker laaaaah ! then we fight ! ahhaha but i keep deny that i didnt buy that shirt for him but actually I DID ! FUCKER LA THIS KID !!! ALWAYS SPOIL MY LIFE !!!!

All i do is crying inside my heart . I love you . I will never leave you . I dont give a fuck to people who said that we never be together for such a long time . I will prove them are abfucksolutely wrong . Im sorry for what happened . I love you . All i need is you . But what can I do ? All I do is crying . i dont have a strong heart . I know you have it :) I will stay with you forever . This is my promise to you . I know my father didnt accept you . But i know Allah will open his heart . But I dont know when . We just wait and see :) you know what ? If im brave enough , i will run away from this situation . Go far far far away from my family . I want to go a place that no body know me .I know I cant run from this things . But what can i do ? You ask me to be patient and relax ? I know Allah will help me someday . Allah tak pernah menguji hamba nya lebih daripada kemampuan hambaNya sendiri . For now , Im just redha what is happen . I know you will help me Allah . Allah tak pernah berhenti untuk menguji hambaNya . Dan juga aku takkan pernah mengalah untuk menerima ujianNya

My heart . my stomach . my head . everything is pain . This is because of you dad ! how could u do this ?! Why dont u just accept him ? He never disturb me ! but he's the one who make my life complete .. Did u ? Never ! So what is your problem ? If my other friend chilling with me . why u didnt say anything ? you know you always make me cry ? I know you have a lot of tension but please . im begging you . Control your self . This is my life ! I know what im doing . If you have a problem with my mum . discuss with her or whatever . Dont intefere my life . PLEASE . I really dissapointed . How dare u ? I just couldnt believe that u did this twice ! First , you angry when im sitting with him . Now ? u angry because he company me ? oh fucker ! im working here also because i want money . If not ................. you are my dad . i respect you . but did u respect me ? hmmpppphh my wish !!

Seriously , I dont whats wrong with other people .. Why they want to destroy my life ? why they want to said bad things about waqas ? So just now came one bangladesh with one negro girl . this bangla or india idk came my way ask me malu2 where is condom .? so i show him where is the condom while the negro waiting outside . Then when he wants to pay he asked me where is my boyfriend then i said why ? then he said im just asking then i said eyh i dont have boyfriend la . just simply say to him then he said why u choose india ? then i said since when im with india guy ? then he said i dont know la india ke pakistan ke apa ke ? then i said pakistan la! then he said oh whatever la . so why you with him ? then i said why ? x boleh ke ? then he said eyh you x tahu ke dia dh ada gf ? then i said mana u tahu ? ada bukti ? then suddenly he shoutly talk loud . eyh kalau u x percaya u pegi la tanya ika indonesia worker tu ! lu nie bodoh ! pergi couple lelaki mcm tu !! then i dah mcm panas ! terus menangis on the spot . ! and straight away i told bella about this . Thank god I have bella ! if not ! i dont know laa . but what is the point he saying like that to me ? because he hates waqas ? but 3 person already said the same thing . waqas has another girl friend . But his another 10 friends didnt say to me like that ? that why im wondering

Oh my god ! one of my friends going to get married on this 9th December :) His name is Ali Akhbar :) Im soo happy when Zayn told me about it :) This friday me and Zayn will going to Masjid . im not sure where but to see and be part of the nikah thingy ! ZAyn call me at 4 in the morning to tell me about it and he's the one who get excited ! hahaha So after solute jumaaat we will straight away go to the masjid around kl . erg kenap x buat kat sunway je kana seining :p hahaha Wow ! i just cant believe i will be part of the nikah thingy . hahhaa normally i always used to see in the tv but now i will see the lafaz in front of my eyes . damn excited ! hahaha For Ali , I think you be with your girl dream only for 3 or 5 months right ? and now you guys get married :) I know she is the best for you and I hope you will be the best for her :) And also be a good father because i cant wait to be auntie to your kids ! HAHAHA Wow ! this is amazing . I just cant believe you will get married! Damn … hahaha well yeah i think u should because you already old man Ali . hahaa You already 25 right ? or 26 ? cant remember :p hahaha but you still my good friends :) So when is my turn ? hahaha got way long to goo :) but Zayn wants to marry with me 2 or 3 years more .So its mean when im 21 years old ? oh damn don't u think that is too early ? well if u married early then u got kids . it will be easier for you to understand your children because you understand what they want and also you in the same century with your kids right ? For example like my parents , they get married when they late 20's . Sometimes they don't understand their kids very well . because their mind are different from us . this is just my opinion okay ? plus , if u get married early then u will get to see you grandchildren and you still can play with your grandchildren :) isn't the best moment ever ? hahha Wait ? why am i thinking like im already ready for marriage ? Hahaha noo , im not get married before im turning 20 . this is my promise :p Hahaha I just cant imagine when im 21 then i will be the first of the ATK member will get married and i will bringing my kids whenever i hang out with all my single lady friends ! hahahaha so not awesome ! hahaha

Yesterday when im chilling with Zayn at Starbucks while watching pitbull concert . haha suddenly his mum call him . His mum doesn't know about me yet . so Zayn ask me to quiet and im just quiet and also online . Suddenly , when he talks to his mum suddenly he mention my name . Then I look at him surprisely then he just smiled and continue talk . Then after finish talking with his mum . he said to me that her mum know already about both of us . then I said how she knows ? then Zayn said because one of my pakistani friend told my mother . Just know his mum said to him tell me one thing , do u have a girlfriend now ? then Zayn said no then his mum said don't lie to me okay ? i know everything about u . your friend just told me about it . then Zayn said penchooo (bad words) hahaha . Actually Zayn want to tell his mother about us when his birthday but then ? his friend suddenly destroy his plan . hahahaha His mum actually very funny woman from what i heard from him . When his mum ask what is ur gf name ? then Zayn said Nur Shafiqah . Then his mum said Nur Shafiqah ????? why so different from my name ? Then Zayn said ha amijan . then he just laughed . Then his mum said is ur gf nicer than me ? Then Zayn said No amijan , both of u are very nice ! Awwwwwww :') hahahaa then after he finished talking with his mum he said to me you know what jan ? I never feel this happy :) Then i was like Awwwwwww :') Then his mum asked him so do u have a mood to get married with her ? Then Zayn said yes of course but she said need to wait first . So , right now im just wait for her . maybe 2 or 3 years more . Then his mum said yeah thats good , if she not ready to get married its okay as long she still keep loving you .. WOW ! am i getting married on 21 years old ? 0.o hahaha well , dah ada jodoh nak buat apa ? kawin cepat lagi bagus :) Jaga suami tersayang dan anak yg tercinta . HAHAHAA diri sendiri pon x terjaga nak jaga org plak . InsyaAllah kale ada jodoh :p Then on my side plak . both of my parents pulak is kinda like trying to accept him as my boyfriend . Hahaaha like seriously he is not a same guys out there .. He is different :) Totally .. no doubt . As long we love each other :) And now he said he changed . because of me :)