Everything just finished . My dad doesnt allowed me to be friend or relationship with Waqas anymore . Thank you so much . Now what can I do ? How can I live without Waqas ? This is so hard for me . Seriously, I dont want to go away from my family and friends . but what can I do ? If lose him , can I concentrate on my studies ? of course not . So, better I stop study and go away from here . I knw its not easy to run but InsyaAllah , I hope Allah will help me . Here in Sunway , no body understand me neither my parents. They also not talking each other . My life just like an orphan . I think an orphan people also have a better life than me . It's okay la . This is my life . I hope when im not here anymore . No body find me . Just do yourself own work . You didnt care about ur daughter right ? u didnt want to know you daughter feelings right ? its okay . i dont blame you . Thank you for everything . Its been 18 years . Thank you for giving me food and also a nice place for me to live. I dont want anything from anyone anymore . I want to be independent . I know my parents cannot believe me . I know . Its okay . I will prove them one day .

I dont update my blog now because i dont want to share my private story with people . This is really important to me . I mean he is important to me but why ? why my dad doesnt like him . i just want to know the reason . the reason is just because he is foreigner from pakistan . Hmmmph my dad want me to be friend with MALAY !! This is absolutely wrong . Why he wants to intefere my life . I know what am i doing . I know ! Im matured ! im 18 now ! but why ? why he do this to me ? waqas is everything for me . EVERYTHING . If my dad cant accept him . but what can we do ? I just cannot leave him ! I dont want to lose him ! never ! Love only comes one time ! and my love is with him ! I dont why my dad cannot give me a good reason to me . Waqas is absolutely nice guy . I know him . I know him so much better than anyone else . But why ? If one day my dad just too much. I will run from this place . because he just want his daughter to be successful . you think successful can guarantee everything ? why dont he just understand me ? why he cannot understand his daughter feeling ? WHY