Finally after 5 days , I can see his face by skype-ing . but not that so clear . but when i see his face . my heart said i do really want him right now . i do need him cause he understands me . he supports me . he cares about me . but why he needs to be far away from me ? why he needs to support me by long distance . Since he go away from me , I like to spend my time in my room . i don't like to hang out anymore . Plus , all my friends also now busy with their college . So i don't want to disturb them . Already 3 days I didn't cry because i promise to Waqas that i will not cry . I try to be strong . but today when I skype-ing with him i cant control myself . and im crying . Thank God that time i was in my way . if not i will crying like crazy . I don't know how can he knows that im crying because when im skipping with him he cant see my tears . after only 15 mins im skype-ing with him then he ask me to call him back then about an hour later he asked me to call him . when I called he said howmuch he miss me now until he cry and his grandmother ask him why ? he telling truth . and his grandmother also crying . she just cant believe that how mug we love each other but at the same time we cant be together all the time . When i heard i feel so bad . WHY ? why all the problem is causes by me ? im also wanted to cry but later when i come home then i will cry like crazy . Waqas is my the only my true love . How bad is he . How ugly is he . How stupid is he . How crazy is he . He is my life . I cant find a better guy except him . and now my family problem . i don't know who am i going to stay with . either my mum or my dad . this is really hard decision because i love both of them buy unfortunately they need to separate because not understanding each other . but why this could be happen ? Why ? Why my dad really hate Waqas ? What he did to me ? he just in love with me . is that wrong ? Why my dad cannot understand my life . Why ? Why I need to follow everything what he say to me ? Why I cannot say no to him . because i love him . but why he didn't love me . if he loves me why he cannot makes me happy . Why im always make him happy ? i don't want to be rude . i don't want to be derhaka . but why can i do ? im just pray to Allah . Always . because I know only Allah can help me .no other else . Only Allah knows what will happen because it is the Creater of me . All i want is my dad happy when im with Waqas . Allah let us meet together and make a bond between us . And i hope our bonds will last forever . Amin .