Today is exactly a week i haven't been together with him . I do really miss him . He is my everything . I don't know how many times i need to say the same words all over again . Im working very hard well not that hard la but still to save money and visit him later soon . Probably 2 months later , i just approximate maybe i will come to Pakistan on 25th April . But but but im not that sure I didn't tell my mom yet about this . If i tell my dad , he absolutely against me . So its better I didn't tell him at all . I don't even want him to know where am I also . I will keep my money until rm5k and spend my money about rm2.3k for the 2 ways flight . So I have almost rm3k . And i think i want to stay there maybe around 2 weeks . I ask myself . is it rm2k++ is enough for me in Pakistan ? And now I need to work hard to speak in urdu . Haha . I know the meaning but i don't know how to make the sentence. But i can understand what they say as long they speak not that fast . Waqas said he will go to Saudi Arab later maybe 6 months later . Because he wants to work there . And a lot of their relatives are staying there too in Jeddah . But for me i think it is difficult . Their culture are absolutely different from us . They need to wear abaya , cant drive , cant work . All you need is to stay at home . How can I do that ? But can I open business over there? I mean a boutique ? For my information , they only wear abaya when they go out from the housebecause they don't want to expose their body to public . In front of their relatives they can wear anything what they want . So the problem is if i want to go to Jeddah . I cant go alone . I need to bring my male mahram together with me . its mean that I need to married with Waqas first then I can go . But the thing is HOW CAN IT IS POSSIBLE . I don't even know their language and most of them like to speak in Arab rather than english . My urdu also not even right then Isuddenly need to learn arab plak ? I can read arab alphabet but to know the meaning well, i just know a little je . haha So another problem is i don't want to hurt my dad's feeling . but if he cant even understand me how can i make him to understand me . Its already been 18 years old , I know he always work hard for us but if he cant spend his time to his kids how can he can understand them .